First Entry...Might As Well Dive In!

Extreme loneliness + extreme boredom + making an ass of yourself + being on your period =

A steady stream of crying that won't seem to stop...

I can't stop crying, and it's getting rather annoying. My glasses are getting all speckled and gross. My eyes are getting puffy and itchy. I'll hate myself in the morning, when they are all swollen and red.

God, nobody knows how much I cry. It's on an almost daily basis. I can't help it...I have to have some form of release or I'd blow up. Hopefully this blog will become another form of release, and I won't have to cry as much.

Loneliness...it's because he hasn't talked to me in almost two weeks. Friday will make two weeks, to be exact. I have no fucking clue where he went, or what happened...but he isn't interested in talking to me, I suppose.

Boredom...fuck this town. I hate being home. Nothing to do. Nowhere to go. Kill me, please.

How did I make an ass of myself? Why not take the plunge? Having phone sex with a guy I've known for two days only to find out he was married definitely wasn't the smartest thing I've ever done. Refer to "loneliness" if you want a clue as to why I did it in the first place. Maybe if he had talked to me, I wouldn't feel so fucking desperate. I hate being that way...so damn needy. But it's just where I am right now. I'll have to deal.

Being on my period...well, enough said, don't you think?

Anyway...if you made it this far: you are one brave soul.

I hope I didn't scare you off...that is, if anyone even reads this damn thing.